I am man

Who am i? Who is God? And why are these issues always getting confused?

I am not god. If i were i am sure things would be different. I am distant cousin to god, like a shooting star is related to the sun. They have much in common, celestial lights shining through the dark. But, while the sun continues it's massive nuclear powered chemical reaction, the shooting star is just another rock.

Fate, luck, karma, predistination, free will ... all these wonderfully silly ideas that are all meaningless. Entropy, there is a nice solid concept for you to grasp. Real, tangible, irrefutable, and it's here, has been for countless millenia, will outlast everything else. I always feel slightly nauseous when people tell me that my fate is in my own hands ... no it's not. These same eople are usually wealthy, or at least comfortable, and i'm sure they like the idea that they are responsible for their happiness. Ask a poor person why they were so horrible to themselves, and you will get the look that says it all.

Control, power, supremacy, these are what people WANT. They crave it like a drug, and anything that comes between them and it is but a problem to be solved as expediently as possible. They think they can get it, have it, use it, and they DESERVE it. How dare they? As though any of us mortals have the right to more than any other? We are little stones on the beach of the universe ... and the bigger stones seem to think they are more valuable than the smaller. The ARROGANCE of these people ... who seem to think they are any more than a pathetic piece of meat ... for them i pray the hell of eternal torment, but to what end? By then too late ... better to cease to exist and never bother this earthly realm again.

God, should IT exist and be what people claim ITit says IT is, is a seriously demented being. From the God of the jews to kali and beyond, the message is always clear:

Jealous, petty, violent ... exactly what our own society deems to be admirable traits of survival. I cannot fathom how many contradictions and iconsistencies have come to be rolled into a neat pile and proudly called WORTHY. I would not wish to be like that. I am man.

God gives on one side and takes the other, never rhyme or reason, but the people will always credit IT with their own stupid ideas, and feel clever for it, and expect to be rewarded, like a stupid dog drooling at noise.

We are stones, occasionally we glimpse other things, in our awareness of around us ... but we will never be more than that. Stones that hope for an afterlife, ith pretty pools of cleaning water and all manner of enticements. To become more than stones we tramle and crush other stones ... in the vague understanding that anything truly worthwhile would be limited, and as such strived for.

God, gods, goddess and any other anything that wants to jump on the list. Fuck you all ... you are worse than man ... you who are so high and demanding of our praise, yet so petty and vulgar. Shame on you. Standing aside and claiming we control ourselves, yet reaching don to our level for no other reason than to interfere for YOUR OWN GLORY, or something. Go away. Leave us alone, i think you've done enough, really, go NOW. There is no justice, no higher anything. There is only brutality and death. ONLY MAN can look at this and triumph in a quiet house, and meditation on this dirty little life he has. But the gods, who nspire all of the worst in us, claim all the best for themselves, enough.

I AM MAN