Monday, 26 September 2011

Friday, 23 September 2011

Rest in Peace Daphne Tyack

Daphne passed on this morning, after a several month long stay in ICU. She leaves her husband Roger, and adopted son Herman, devastated.

Another casualty of the south african unhealth system, the entire event was because doctors messed up. From start to finish. She was operated on due to misdiagnosis, and she died in hospital through incompetance, in another city from her family, and among people who didn't care about her, either way. But they will want their "rewards" .. financial.

A good woman with a sharp mind, quick wit, and a lot of kindness, private though, and sadly her passing will hardly be noticed. She did not tolerate fools, and had that old fashioned sense of right, and clean, and proper.

We notice, the absence of life, a blank space where something should be. There will be no funeral, no memorial service, only 2 sad men, one old one young, who will carry her in their hearts forever.

R.I.P. Daphne, we'll look after your boys.

EDIT TO ADD:

DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO THAT GOOD NIGHT

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rage at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Tuesday, 20 September 2011

Monday, 19 September 2011

Why i hate think bike.

More than a few people have asked me to define why i am so angry with think bike, because i am, angry that is.

Think Bike was never perfect, there never was a golden period with no problems. But i had a fairly good idea of what it wanted to be, and the many imperfections were put to the back, since there were so many other problems that needed addressing first. So this mix match of unlikely sorts ended up being a community with a shared vision.

The good man Bucc steered this ship with a master's hand, making sure that none of the silly things took over from the basic shared vision and goals, and ensuring a ship that could weather the daily storms. Then Bucc died, and left us with a gaping hole where, he should be. At that point, i don't believe think bike had ever been stronger. It was a single uniting cause that all bikers related to and respected, and the ship sailed on with a new master.

Sadly this didn't work too well, and so began the FIT IN OR FUCK OFF philosophy that think bike is now famous for. Basically, they said WE (leadership) are think bike, you (members) are not, non members even more so. We don't need anyone who doesn't pay us an annual fee, and we don't need anyone to tell us anything we don't want to hear. This, coupled with a complete absence of any real leadership, led to more than a few disappointed people.

A major issue of contention was the forum. Now the good master Bucc was into IT, and saw the advantages of an online forum, whereby people could share experiences and ideas and plan events without leaving their home or office. The forum really is the wood of the good ship tb. The interactions online, which were initially all really positive, from a perspective of motive, slowly began to be dragged down by something. Attitude perhaps, or lack of focus, but it became commonplace for anyone who penned a "complaint" to be shouted out by all and sundry, regardless of the value of any comments made.

The "good" people, family types, left almost immediately. Many others, in the tru tb spirit, believed that they should stay and try create a better organisation. They were wrong. One by one they were insulted, berated, and discredited. The organisation itself meanwhile, began floundering as the leadership make bad decision after bad decision. The typical response was denial, obfuscation, then outright verbal assault on the person making the complaint, or observation. To the point where civil discourse was impossible, and ANY thread was "hijacked", by mindless little midgeons who got off on being "clever". This was actively encouraged by management. Clever comments add nothing, but really insult people nonetheless.

The other angle of course was the alcohol abuse, widespread, flagrant, and utterly unrepentant. Their main "casual chat area" is the PUB, and the most common statement on tb became, "let's go have a beer". Not entirely outside the "biker" mindset, but hardly fit for a road safety campaign. That they would stand outside their think bike gazebo at a biker event drinking beer from sixpacks lying on the grass in front of the "please join us" stand was reprehensible. Again, anyone who even questioned this practice was viciously attacked on the forum. They even collected the name drink bike from others in the biker community.

This is now several years later, and the "leaders" now have such a complete deathgrip on the campaign, that even "official representatives" have no idea what is happening. There is a complete attitude of need to know, and other than the execs, nobody needs to know. There are major problems within the campaign, but more concerning is the complete absence of response, and a seeming lack of will to even address ANY concerns. Secrecy and underhandedness have become the trademarks of this campaign. even calling it a community now is over generous, while they certainly are, they are no more a community than any other bike club in existance.

A top down heirarchical structure of control which brooks no argument, admits nothing, promises everything and does nothing (save covering their own arses).

I have not yet had direct evidence of any of this, only my experience coupled with what people tell me, and while i seldom believe anything people tell me, when 10+ people all sing the same song, well they must have heard it before, somewhere. I could speak for ages on specific incidents of complete maladministration and similar ... but i won't.

I have evidence that think bike employs foul play on the forums. I'm trying to decide whether or not to fully post that information here, but i imagine that it may create problems later. So here's the deal, i have the evidence, and will share it with anyone who asks. Keeping silent is not an option for me. It never was, hopefully never will be. I have tried to voice my opinions in a constructive way, but it's become clear that they will not listen. They have no desire to listen, and frankly their arrogance and stupidity has made them blind to anything but their own agendas. So be it. I share this info now from a sincere desire for the truth to be known, they MAY NOT abuse the ship any more. They MAY NOT ignore their mandate while reaping rewards for the work of other people. They MAY NOT carry on regardless in trampling the real community of bikers that brave these bloody rivers of death.

david.vigilant@gmail.com

If you ask, i'll give you evidence that think bike has grossly exceeded their mandate, and should be removed. Think bike is a failure now. Perhaps they can resurface one day in the future, but before then, their current form to be destroyed completely, and reset to a simpler, more open model.

Rant

I'm spitting mad. ANOTHER "friend" turned around and basically accused me of not living up to their expectations of me.
What the fucking fuck? I ask ...

I am who i am, if you don't like me, goodbye.

I have no responsibility towards anyone other than myself, and i am insulted to realise that other people would think that i would try please them, or use them, as the case may be.

I am living my own dream thanks, complete with occasional nightmares. You're welcome to join in and try find some peace and love in this crazy fucking universe, along with me, but frankly if you're in it for anything other than just the ride i WILL disappoint you.

So be it.

Tuesday, 13 September 2011

Words of Wisdom

In these times of insanity, and in the general breakdown of everything, and especially when you consider the worthlessness of state, it helps to climb out our south african box, and view the whole issue of government and society from a much broader platform.
Admittedly this was an email send along, but well worth every small pixelated glow.

1. In my many years I have come to a conclusion that one useless man is a shame, two is a law firm and three or more is a congress.
-- John Adams

2. If you don't read the newspaper you are uninformed, if you do read the newspaper you are misinformed.
-- Mark Twain

3. Suppose you were an idiot. And suppose you were a member of Congress. But then I repeat myself.
-- Mark Twain

4. I contend that for a nation to try to tax itself into prosperity is like a man standing in a bucket and trying to lift himself up by the handle.
-- Winston Churchill

5. A government which robs Peter to pay Paul can always depend on the support of Paul.
-- George Bernard Shaw

6. A liberal is someone who feels a great debt to his fellow man, which debt he proposes to pay off with your money.
-- G. Gordon Liddy

7. Democracy must be something more than two wolves and a sheep voting on what to have for dinner.
-- James Bovard, Civil Libertarian (1994)

8. Foreign aid might be defined as a transfer of money from poor people in rich countries to rich people in poor countries.
-- Douglas Casey, Classmate of Bill Clinton at Georgetown University

9. Giving money and power to government is like giving whiskey and car keys to teenage boys.
-- P.J. O'Rourke, Civil Libertarian

10. Government is the great fiction, through which everybody endeavors to live at the expense of everybody else.
-- Frederic Bastiat, French economist(1801-1850)

11. Government's view of the economy could be summed up in a few short phrases: If it moves, tax it. If it keeps moving, regulate it. And if it stops moving, subsidize it.
-- Ronald Reagan (1986)

12. I don't make jokes. I just watch the government and report the facts.
-- Will Rogers

13. If you think health care is expensive now, wait until you see what it costs when it's free!
-- P.J. O'Rourke

14. In general, the art of government consists of taking as much money as possible from one party of the citizens to give to the other.
-- Voltaire (1764)

15. Just because you do not take an interest in politics doesn't mean politics won't take an interest in you!
-- Pericles (430 B.C.)

16. No man's life, liberty, or property is safe while the legislature is in session.
-- Mark Twain (1866)

17. Talk is cheap...except when Congress does it.
-- Anonymous

18. The government is like a baby's alimentary canal, with a happy appetite at one end and no responsibility at the other.
-- Ronald Reagan

19. The inherent vice of capitalism is the unequal sharing of the blessings. The inherent blessing of socialism is the equal sharing of misery.
-- Winston Churchill

20. The only difference between a tax man and a taxidermist is that the taxidermist leaves the skin.
-- Mark Twain

21. The ultimate result of shielding men from the effects of folly is to fill the world with fools.
-- Herbert Spencer, English Philosopher (1820-1903)

22. There is no distinctly Native American criminal class...save Congress.
-- Mark Twain

23. What this country needs are more unemployed politicians.
-- Edward Langley, Artist (1928-1995)

24. A government big enough to give you everything you want, is strong enough to take everything you have.
-- Thomas Jefferson

25. We hang the petty thieves and appoint the great ones to public office.
-- Aesop

FIVE BEST SENTENCES

1. You cannot legislate the poor into prosperity by legislating the wealth out of prosperity.

2. What one person receives without working for...another person must work for without receiving.

3. The government cannot give to anybody anything that the government does not first take from somebody else.

4. You cannot multiply wealth by dividing it.

5. When half of the people get the idea that they do not have to work, because the other half is going to take care of them, and when the other half gets the idea that it does no good to work, because somebody else is going to get what they work for, that is the beginning of the end of any nation

Me again

It's a strange strange world we live in, master Jack ...

What an astonishing few days i've had. On the up side, i've been right about a few things for a few years now, and total confirmation came last night, where i was in a meeting, and i wasn't saying anything, but the men around me were speaking as if from my own thoughts, it was surreal. It's made a lot of fighting worthwhile, it's made a lot of hardship bearable, knowing that however else things may be, i was right, and did right. Doesn't mean it's all fixed up, far from it, but you know when you are convicted about something, and everyone either disagrees or ignores you, and finally you receive more than 100% backing from people who you really respect. Completely unexpected, more than a little humbling, and at the same time so powerful and motivating.

So from a complete high, the same day i found out that a very good friend has been lying to us, for years. I guess i had come to expect it, but been afraid to find out, but the truth outs, it always does, then it's time to pick up the pieces. I'm not angry, at all. Hurt, VERY, sad even more so, but not angry. What we have is a really broken person, sick, in the spiritual sense, who desperately needs to pick up her life, but can't, her own inner demons i suppose. As ever, these things really are more complicated than they sound, and something has to be done, soon. But like any sick creature, you have to be gentle, and wise, and you'll probably get bitten in the process, but it'll be worth it, if you can see the miracle of healing.

Another friend stabbed me in the back too, last week, and continuing. Misinterpreted everything, and frankly fucked everything up, for me, for her, and for more others than i can count. I can't fix that, this time. Accusing me of "having no balls" and similar ... yet last night proved her wrong, on every front. Again, it's just gentle sadness left, stupidity chasing stupidity, forgive them, for they know not how misguided they are.

I think the thing is that you cannot "expect" me to behave in a certain way, ever. And being angry at me for holding my silence is silly, especially when the silence becomes so full of other people's fears and insecurities ... which is what i wanted to see in the first place. Actually no, i wanted all the insecurities and stupidities to just fuck off, but when people believe their own bullshit, sometimes you have to draw them out, and expose them to the world for what they are.

Highs and lows indeed, all so interwoven and so scraggly it's hard to tell sometimes, which is what. I've been completely right, and completely wrong, for years, in a single day. I have my honour though, and i stand proud nonetheless. Where i was wrong, i acted with good faith, and where i was right, i acted with courage, despite the odds. It's not often one's life is laid so bare to oneself, and even less seldom that one can reflect so clearly as i have here. Some problems have been solved, other's have yet to be fully explored, but i have a small amount of faith back, in myself, i guess, but in other people too, despite their weakness.

Peace and love on this sunny highveld morning

Thursday, 8 September 2011

Where i welcome Spring into my garden



Welcome

The kindness of the cynic

They know not the kindness of the cynic, not the gentleness of temper of such a lover of life. Love of one's fellowmen should not be a doctrine, an article of faith, a matter of intellectual conviction, or a thesis supported by arguments. The love of mankind which requires reasons is no true love. This love should be perfectly natural, as natural for man as for the birds to flap their wings. It should be a direct feeling, springing naturally from a healthy soul, living in touch with Nature. No man who loves the trees truly can be cruel to animals or to his fellowmen. In a perfectly healthy spirit, gaining a vision of life and of one's fellowmen and a true and deep knowledge of Nature, kindness is the natural thing.

That soul does not require any philosophy or man-made religion to tell him to be kind.

........................................

Taken from: hi.baidu.com

I've still got so far to go.

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

Biker down



N1 North before 7. Pic courtesy twitter.

I saw the plastics in the road ... when a merc swung out into my path to avoid them.

I'm curious though, why he went down, thats a nasty lot of plastic bits, he hit something hard. Whether he was in the yellow, and hit trouble, or if he was in the biker lane, and tried to escape to yellow.

Hope he's ok.

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

Monday, 5 September 2011

Friday, 2 September 2011

Setbacks

The last few days have been a miserable blur. Aside from my own ever present issues, i've been dealt a blow that is very hard to take. I'm over the ranting and raving, was enough of that, and the raw seething anger has condensed into cold hard stone.

Thank you think bike, and helivac, for putting politics in front of orphans.

Thank you think bike, and helivac for saying one thing, and then doing another.

Thank you think bike, for pissing on the community, sowing discord and strife, and being nothing more than another pissy little baaiker club, when you have such an important mission, and had so much goodwill that is now lost.

You've forgotten everything that WE consider important: A community based safety organisation focusing on Raising Awareness and Saving Lives. NOT a private members group focusing on commercial success and personal glory.

"i've seen pretty people disappear like smoke,
friends will arrive, friends will disappear."
- Bob Dylan.