I under stand

For the first time in my life i've had a true epiphany, a lightening bolt of illumination that sets the entire landscape into bright white light. The landscape is the world around us, not so much the physical, but the surreal world that overlays all of our actions, thoughts and plans.

I under stand how money works, around the world and around us. I under stand how i am liable for all the bad things in society, how i give consent, frequently and emphatically to the powers that be, in our case the wonderful ANC. I under stand how they rule, what they need to continue, and how it is i who give them that. I under stand the source of their power, their weakness, and their bounds. I under stand how to say NO, fully, and finally, and to at last, after 33 turns of our pretty roundabout, how to regain my honour.

In my life, i have 3 main areas of operation:
physical
emotional
mental

and i have been struggling with the highest of these for a very long time, trying to reconcile the confusion of our times, and my own life. What astonishment that it is at the PHYSICAL where i must most urgently apply myself, that my emotional and mental well being is intrinsically dependant on my physical actions and statements.

Not so suggest that i have been negligent in the physical, i keep good hygiene, eat well, visit doctors when necessary, and so on. That's not it. I have silently accepted the world for what it is, with the humble intent of trying to under stand it, as well as abide by the rules in the world.

There's always been an assumption in our society, that the human instinct is to self destruction, but i have always taken issue with that, as most "normal" people i know would never hurt anyone unless forced. So why is this planet so badly messed? Blaming people is easy, explaining the whys and hows less so. In fact, there seems to exist contradictions in our society that are not logical, reasonable, moral or anything else of value in any way. There's a WILDCARD out there, working tirelessly against my own personal ambition of a happy, healthy family and lifestyle. We know this, and pointing a finger at "money" or "government" is easy enough, we KNOW it's them, but we cannot show how, and their entreaties to "pay our debts", "do our duty" and "follow the laws" only serve to re-inforce the confusion.

Like the TV license adverts: "it's the right thing to do". No it's not. It's the legal thing to do. If you don't you will be subjected to all the horrors they can muster, from debt councelling, blacklisting, court ordered deductions from your wages, and imprisonment ... all this for not giving them money for something they have given you whether you want it or not, a cancerous VHF signal of electronic garbage. That CANNOT be "right" under any reasonable scenario. But they do it, and are literally getting away with it.

So i stand, and choose where i stand. No longer can i sit and watch, i said this at the turn of the year, and it is taking shape and form and substance of it's own volition. THERE IS HOPE.

So i have been quiet, apologies to my frequent visitors, but i will make it up to you i promise, not with words or pictures, but statements of fact and proof. That's my story for the day, and i'm sticking to it.

peace and love