Right, this is arguably the most difficult post i've ever written. Most likely because i'm in the most difficult place i've ever been. Also because some stuff is personal, other stuff involves a lot of other people, ad i certainly don't wish to air dirty laundry in public, nor slander. This is a post i must write, because i write posts, lol, that's what this blog is for. Just me, another view in this multi-layered multiverse of ours. And despite everything, all the trauma and raw emotion that is coursing through my veins, this is an utterly god post (typo, good post, freudian slip that i think is hilarious right now, because this post can only be about love, and God).
All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing. Edmund Burke
Evil exists. Pure, unmitigated evil that slashes and tears and burns mercilesly at all of mankind. We all know it, we've all experienced it at some point. Usually it hides behind a corporation, but sometimes there are men and women who carry that evil inside them. They partake of darkess and keep it safe, and usually hidden, deception above all else. They mix among us, we heedless to their true natures. They infiltrate, obscure, confuse, decieve, lie and all manner of things. The difference between these men and others, is that where a lie is uncovered, it is not a mere slip, or a thoughtless act worthy of remedy, but a small crack in a faultless facade, that shows intentions, which are utterly bestial and base. Not fleeting moments of anger, either, but a systematic and concerted effort to cause pain in others.
Sadly, our conventional methods of dealing with problems are, poblematic at best. For these mn know no limits. Violence, intimidation, co-ersion, blackmail, all these are merely conveniences for these men. Tools to be used against whoever they deam a threat. Because they themselves know more than any others how tenuous their place among us is. They know the falseness of the facade they wear. So they run amok among us, creating pain and misery and suffering, seemingly free of our bounds, of kindness and fellow humanity.
The thing i've learned though, is that like all bullies, they are terribly afraid inside themsves. And like all bullies have that hidden fear that consumes them. That fear is terribly simple, truth.
They are never misguided, they are willfilly opposed to truth, and the truth is the light. Like a light, the truth is open for all to see. They hide the truth, it's part of their game. And the truth is the greatest weapon against them. It sends them reeling in agony.
I have been involved with two such men, in the last few days. Truth be told, i've been involved with them both for years. Decades of pain and hate that i never even full conceived of. Not so much for me, this is so much not about me, but everyone around me. And i have stood silent too long in the face of this evil. I was hoodwinked too, and believed the deception, and allowed them to work their evil ways. And they have. Standing now at the summit, overlooking mountains and valleys of lives and stories, i see their acts. I see their victims crying out. I see their hearts full of malice and ego. I see the blood, the tears, and i see the effects, years later of their carefully construed slights. And i find myself unable to remain silent. I find myself standing before them as a messenger of truth and i speak the truth.
The hardest is not letting your own personal truths replace those of other far more deserving of this moment. The hardest is needing to know that it is not your own malice that drives your tongue. The hardest is speaking truths which will cut to the core and shatter their frail minds. The hardest is speaking the truth.
Judge not, lest ye be judged.
Sounds like pretty good advice to me. I follow that advice. No really, ok?
But all men will be judged, at some point.
Mene mene tekel parson.
We shall all have our day, once we die. We will face whatever stands behind the veil, and be accountable for our travels on this plane, or perhaps through this corner of the cave. Some men are fortunate, and are asked to account for their works while still alive and are able to make remedy. Able, but not always willing.
My heart is terribly sad right now. For both victim and perpetrator. But the sadness is mixed with anger. Blind rage at the blackness of the soul that caused this. And sometimes, one cannot stand aside and do nothing. For that would be the victory of all the evil that lives in this and the next world. One must stand and act. One must act righteously!! above all else, for we of the good are burdened by our actions, and must take care lest we become that which destroys. We cannot be stained with their blood, we cannot act in the same way.
We are burdened by our humanity! We are burdened with our care and love for life! It IS a burden and we are weary for the carrying!!!!! But as my friends would well know, it's a burden worth every weary step. It is an honour, to carry your friends burden. It is an honour to stand tall in the face of adversity. It truly is magnificent to unite friends and family in common love, and community. To share, to teach, to learn, to partake of this bread called life.
And part of this burden is to act, with honour, against those who seek to destroy.
I came face to face with evil. I came face to face with good. And i know that i choose good. And i know that good and evil are not abstract concepts, but living breathing animals which have their own ways. I know that love is the reason. LOVE IS THE REASON WE ARE HERE. I can shout it for ever and always and never tire. It is as absolute a truth as you will ever hear in your life. I know it is a truth that spans every single tribe race family nation that has ever been. I know this with the conviction of everything i have. And i know that i will NEVER be dissuaded. I cannot be. it is fixed and it is good.
I know i am not God. I know i am AS a god to be sure:
Jesus answered them, “Is it not written in your Law, ‘I have said you are gods?
I have no hesitation. No fear. No confusion. I am my Father's child.
I should end this now i think. I give you the reader this, if nothing else ever, love. Take it, use it, give it away. I have plenty so come back for more.
peace and love